Jeez I have a lot of ground to cover.. Worked at Best Buy all summer, love it, still work there now. Got a car, 93 Grand Am GT Coupe, its great. Lost 49 pounds now since April. In the new apartment, love it, living with great guys. So there you have it.

WOW its been awhile and I've been busy. I'm working at Best Buy for the summer and I plan on working there during school too if I can get a car. I turned 21 on the 12th of July.. my oldest brother Eric took me to the southside and got me hammered.. but I still hold the crown as I have yet to throw up from drinking!!! (not that I do it often at all, but still). I also started the Atkins Diet with my family, and I'm down 27 pounds since anyone has last seen me at school. God I am starting to feel good about myself. Speaking of that, there is this girl at work, Rose... I'll just leave it at that. Peace out. Hopefully I'll remember to update soon.

I don't know why I get so down about getting a summer job, I need the money BAD. We will see how this new one goes, 7.70 an hour, 2-10 shift,chance of working overtime until 12, m-f, opening boxes of pens and putting them onto a pallete for a laser etcher. Sounds easy, but is it too monotonous? I guess if I ever think it is I have to remind myself that I need a car by next semester. I'll just have to put my brain to work entertaining me while I work. Anything sounds better than last year's crapfest of a Job at IDL, where their motto is "you sit, you quit". And trust me folks, I saw it happen right infront of my own eyes. It's time I stop being so lazy and start doing something about my life. I have no money because I don't go out and work for it, I'm not skinny because I don't work for it. With my friends' help that will change. Well, I'll let you guys know how it went, but I can't promise I'll do it anytime soon, internet time is down to a minimum now that I'm home, dialup SUCKS.

You know, the worst feeling in the world is when you work your hardest and put your all into something, and others think its just not good enough. I'm not one to give up but I do have my weak moments, and right now is one of them. It's more of a question of why? I wish I knew the answer. I think I am doing everything right in this world, standing up for what i believe, being a good son and a good friend. When is it my turn? I'm not a selfish man, but I want to be happy sometime, is that too much to ask? So finals are over, and I DONT want to go home. I miss my friends around here. Hopefully they will come to visit me this summer (and the other way around if I ever get a car.) So thats about all I have to say for now, I need to update this thing more often but absolutely no one reads it anyways. (try and prove me wrong).

So its forever since I last updated the journal. I've been crazy busy with projects and this is the last week of classes before finals. I'm sick of pitying myself and decided I need to do something about it. Yeah my knee is fucked up, EVERYONE KNOWS MARK and no one cares. Yea I'm a fat slob, it's only my fault this is true. Well I had an MRI saturday, and the magnet was so strong my knee was twitching. Freaking wierd. Well Josh and I have this final video to work on and its not going as smoothly as planned. We need to add a whole new story to the plot to thicken it and give it some solidarity. Well I'm just about to go to my last printmaking and 3d design class. YESS!!!!!! On a side note, I came to realize who my real friends are, even if I just recently started hanging out with them. Thanks guys(and girls).

Last night, Josh and Val stopped over for the usual wednesday night thing and they got a rare show from my retarded roomates. Besides the fact that 2 of my roomates talked to each other on there cellphones for about 3 hours in their rooms, it was pretty fun. I finally got to see Val for the 3rd time in my life haha. It's so obvious that Josh and I have the exact same sence of humor, we laughed at everything the same. I'm still thinking how much fun me and Deb had. I can't when she moves in right around school and her work right here in Moon. Those times will rock! So my knee is bad... real bad.. I'm so worried it made my stomach sick all night long. :/ I have an appointment friday morning.. and if I get surgery, my summer is ruined. So pray for me please..

Wow, good times.. good times. Last night me and Deb went to get my cellphone (yes I finally conformed and got one) and then went to see Val's sister in a Jazzband festival. Then we went to Eat 'n Park with her family and I had an awesome time. I hope we get to hang out more often. Other than that, tonight Josh and Val are coming over for Southpark/Chappelle pizza night.. so this should rock! Gotta study for a big marketing test, catch ya on the flip side...

Boy what a fun time I had with Josh,Val, and Steve (even after all the drama). I haven't laughed this hard since God knows when. Well, my knee was BAD but I didn't wanna say anything because we were all having so much fun. I got back, took off my bandage, and my knee almost collapsed. But enough of that. I met a great potential friend in Steve, the kid cracks me up. Story after story and they are all hilarious. It was my genious idea to go get icecream and eat it outside in about 40 degree weather, but it was so fun. I hope I get to hang out with these people more often. Other than that, don't forget to set forward your clocks everyone. This was a good weekend for me, I got to rest my knee some which felt awesome and got some decent sleep. Also got to hang out with great friends so I'm happy :). Current mood = very pleased and content.

Great, now my knee is ready to give out. I can't take this shit right now, too much stuff to do. IF i get surgery you can forget about my summer job too. I have a tentative appointment with my Internalist so I hope that goes through. How about some good news?

My brother just finally moved into his new house and it is amazing. The damn thing has a bridge in it! Nuf' said. It's the weekend which means friends time. Hopefully Josh and Val I can see and possibly have our Lawrence of Arabia viewing since its the best movie of all time and basically no one has ever seen it. 7 Oscars!!. Oh ya for all you lackeys who don't know, friday = no classes or work= free time for Mark to do whatever he wants haha.

I found this quote on the back of the Cucalorous Film Festival guide that we got when we I was there.. " Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imaginations. Devour old films, new filmfs, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work and theft will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is nonexistent. And don't bother concealing your theivery- celebrate it if you fe el like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: "It's not where you take things from -It's where you take them to." -Jim Jarmusch

Can you sum up anymore how I feel right now than that? NO! Friggin' awesome. Take it to heed people, especially filmakers/videographers.

Well it's friday morning and I'm sober again, I don't remember much of last night so please fill me in people, I know i was on here talking to people.

Well little to my knowledge, I had to wake up at 6:50 for the TVT festival that I TD'd for. I did an awesome job and only messed up big once.(thats good for 5 hours of TDing). My knee pain is not getting any better and its really starting to scare me. I wish people could understand my position. At age 16 when I had major surgery on my knee, my plica, which is what lubricates the joint, was infected, so they had to remove it, meaning.. no knee lubrication for me.. a.k.a. bone on bone grindage. NOT GOOD. Now, my knee is clicking again everytime i take a step and its freaking me out, not to mention how damn painful it is.. more than you can imagine. I guess it's time I tell my parents how bad thigns are and possibly get an appointment at my old surgeon.. sad, sad day. More updates to come I guess.